SNOW!!

I am so glad that we're getting the wintry mix that we're getting. I absolutely love the snow. I love it when I walk outside and the world is silent. :)

It makes me think that checking into law schools in Colorado may not be such a bad idea. I cannot wait to be done with my undergrad and on to law school. I just think about how great it will be to be back in a classroom where the focus is on something other than depreciation. Not that I haven't enjoyed accounting - I have, and I do. I just miss the analytical side that political science and debate bring. My class spring semester in Civil Liberties should help to sooth my desire.

Life is good right now. It's so great to know that I can feel that way without being attached to someone. Not that I don't miss being in a relationship - I do. But I've finally realized that it's better to be alone than to be in a relationship that doesn't support your growth. God it took me long enough, huh?

I'm hoping to take some pictures tomorrow if the snow lasts until then. For today, it's work until 5, studying until 7:20, final at 7:40. Then home - I'll be done with this semester! I'm not coming out with too bad a GPA either. In fact, it's very good by my standards. I can't wait until this weekend - that's when it'll feel like the holidays really get started. Only a few more gifts to buy before Christmas!! Okay, enough rambling. I'll end with this...

"I get all the news I need from the weather report
I can gather all the news I need from the weather report
Heeey, I got nothing to do today but smile
The only living boy in New York..."

-The Only Living Boy in New York (Simon and Garfunkel)

Anticipation

As promised, I'm going to start writing in this blog again. I thought all day yesterday about what I should choose for my subject, but alas, nothing stuck. I think that is what is so frustrating to me about writing. I know I have the talent to string words together in a pleasing way, but I have a difficult time choosing something to focus on. As opposed to dwelling on this fact, I've decided that maybe keeping a blog and just writing what comes to me may be a cure for my disease.

Thus.... Some random thoughts:

It's Christmas-time, my absolute favorite time of year. I got to thinking yesterday about the difference between Christmas now, and Christmas as a child. It used to hold so much more wonder. Yes, Santa was a part of that, but I think the bigger piece came from my ability to anticipate the holiday. So, to further explore that feeling, I looked up the definition.

anticipate: expect: regard something as probable or likely
anticipate: be excited or anxious about

I think I like the second definition best. That is exactly how during the long days between Thanksgiving and Christmas as a child. What is it about maturing that takes away some of our ability to anticipate? Is it the stress we feel trying to prepare for the holidays? That seems like it could be a portion of the answer. But I think, as unfortunate as it is, that adults quit anticipating in general because they've experienced disappointment.

Sure, we still look forward to Christmas. We still feel joyful that it's on its way. I think there is still a little anticipation left in all of us. It's just not the same as it was when we were younger. Does anyone agree with me here? Who can offer some other, less depressing reasons? :)

All I know is it takes a lot of courage to be truly hopeful about something.